you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
When reality sets in
I can’t catch my breath
hugging knees to chest
not sure of the road up ahead
constant lump in my throat
wanting to be left alone
You won’t let me go
it’s such a comfort to know
you are here with me
even when I don’t want you to be.
~Marcie Warner Bridges
©20 January 2019
I think when we ask God to meet with us we think He is supposed to come and be right in our faces. It’s supposed to be a big deal and we should feel Him in a most exorbitant way.
Yet we forget God is often a God of quietness. He doesn’t make a flamboyant entrance into our souls or a grand display. He seeks to be present in our quietness. In our stillness.
We often get too wrapped up in “feeling”. Because if we don’t feel Him then He obviously isn’t there. Right?
But Psalm 139 tells us that no matter where we are or what we are doing, God is always there. He was there when we were just a thought. He was there when we were in the womb. No matter how far down or up we go, God is there.
Even when we DON’T want Him to be.
And if we’re honest, sometimes we don’t want God in our lives. Perhaps we think, “What has he really done for me?” or, “What if He wants more from me than I can give?”. Maybe we just simply want to be left alone. Completely.
Yeah, this is counter to Christianity. Believe you me, I know this is not what Christians should want, letting on even think about. But sometimes we get so down and frustrated and depressed we don’t even want to acknowledge His existence in our lives.
I mean, what’s the use, right?
The “use” is this. When we allow God into our deepest, most intimate parts, He is there to comfort us. There is not a human being on this planet — not your spouse, best friend, relative, mother, father, etc… — who can comfort you like Jesus can. When we are at our loneliest, He is our best friend. You can count on Jesus to always, always be with you.
We just have to ask.
He promises peace for our souls. When we feel the most unloved, He can come in and make us feel more loved than any other person or animal on this earth.
Jesus’ name is more powerful than we ever give it credit for. When we are at our lowest, that’s when He is closest, if we’ll let Him.
Will you let Jesus in today? Will you let Him fill your empty spaces and places?
Jesus. There really is just something about that name.
From My Heart to Yours,