I walked into her room not knowing what to expect. My
friend looked at me with eyes so sad and I didn’t know what to say. She
couldn’t talk to me, but she tried, yet I failed at understanding what she was
trying to say. I tried to read her lips but it is a skill I’ve not honed yet. I
grappled with things to talk about but my mind stayed blank. Finally I
understood one of her questions and was able to make some conversation. I also
understood when she thanked me for coming and when she told me she loves me.
Before leaving, I prayed with her but I left with my heart extremely heavy and
many, many questions on my mind…
am I doing? Why am I wasting time on….???? Why am I letting such and such
thoughts dwell in my brain? I feel down and depressed about a lot of things
today but most of all I realize that I suddenly just want to savor the moments
I have with my family and friends. Because I realize it could be me or one of
my family members in that hospital room and here but by the grace of God go I. 

my girls asked me if I miss them being little. Sometimes I do. But mostly I
wish I would have cherished it more. I wish I would have taken time to really
enjoy certain moments in life. I can’t get those moments back but perhaps now
my eyes have been opened to the life God really wants me to live. Jesus’ mother
cherished the time she had with Him. Luke 2:19, “But Mary treasured up all
these things and pondered them in her heart.
”  I pray that we learn to do the same in our lives
and hearts. 
just want to listen to the falling rain as it pelts against my window.
just want to drown in a book that takes me to somewhere else.
just want to snuggle up in a warm, cozy blanket drinking hot cocoa.
just want to savor this moment, this quiet, this calm.
noise around me blares against my ear drums
squelches all thought and ponderings that could be.
hate it for it goes on and on and there is no ignoring it
chaos about me seems to think it is free to make havoc upon my soul.
even in the stillest silence it is not complete.
now I sit. Waiting. Listening. Intently.
it is. Can you hear it? Can you feel it?
join me, and listen.
to the rain as it beats down upon the roof.
and go to a land far away.
in a warmth that melts your heart.
the moment. It won’t last forever.
– –
Marcell Warner Bridges
December 2009

Dear Lord, let me remember to take the time to spend with my family and
my friends and to be the friend I should be. Help me to not be so consumed with
my own life that I miss opportunities with those around me to be the wife,
mother and friend I need to be.  I love
You Lord. Thank You for the life You’ve given to me and the life You’ve given
me more abundantly in You. May I use it for Your glory and honor.  In Jesus Name, Amen.



©Marcie Bridges, Heart Thoughts 2013
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