by Marcie Bridges, @Marcie_Bridges
If I could find you out at sea I would swim the ocean deep,
If I could find you in the meadow I would bask in its stillness
But I found you right here where I am on my knees in your presence.
Oh Jesus. Where are you? Are you here?
Floating. I see a hot air balloon wayyy up in the sky. Can I reach it? Why are my feet in the air above my head?
Jesus? Are you here? Mark is holding my hand. I feel him. I hear him. Where are You? Jesus … Jesus … Jesussss… there’s just something about that name …
A voice began to sing along with me. So gentle. So sweet. “‘Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word. Just to rest upon His promise. Just to know, thus sayeth the Lord. Jesus, Jesus how I trust You, how I’ve proved You o’re and o’re. Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus. Oh for grace to trust You more…”
And the world stop spinning and I stopped floating as things went a bit dark for awhile.
Such was my experience on Nitrous Oxygen a few weeks ago right before having a tooth extracted and a bone graft done. I was so nervous my blood pressure was at an all-time high. But when I woke up, my arms and legs felt extremely limber. Relaxed was an understatement!
When asked if I remembered anything during my time of Nitrous floating or in the surgery my immediate response was, “I was singing with Jesus.”
Lately I’ve been longing to find Jesus in every part of my life. The Bible says when we intentionally seek God we will find Him. When we search for Him with all of our heart He will come to us and be present with us.
This surgery has given me a lot of time to sit and be still. I am not sure why my energy level is not coming back like it was (though I’m thinking it’s because I’m still experiencing so much pain I can’t eat regular foods even three weeks later). So while I am spending time recovering, I’m spending a lot of time with God. Searching for Him behind every door, every tree, every shadow, every corner.
Psalm 139:7-10 tells us that no matter where we go or what we are doing God is there with us. Doesn’t that give you the most comforting assurance you’ve ever had? He promises to never leave us nor forsake us.
Have you been searching for God too? I promise you, when you seek Him with all of your heart, He will be found.
Even in a dentist’s chair out of your mind on Nitrous Oxide.
I love this Marcie. We tend to make things so complicated, but the Lord made it quite simple: If we seek Him, we will find Him. I just love that 🙂
OH yes! It seemed in all of my time in His Word yesterday over and over I read about coming to Jesus. Finding Him. Returning to Him. I think He must be pursuing me as much as I am Him. 🙂
You are such an encourager Marcie! I am so nervous about this upcoming non-Christian writer's conference, but Jesus will be there too! Thanks for reminding me!
I am praying for you as you take this step of faith sweet sister. 🙂
Marcie, I am so, so glad to hear that the surgery went well, and that you felt Jesus right there with you every step of the way. The Lord IS everywhere we are and is glad to meet us in our time of need. Praying for continued healing and recovery.
Blessings!
Thank you Martha for your prayers. They mean so very much to me. I am healing slowly. Have not had as much need for pain relievers this week. The Lord bless you and keep you dear friend, 🙂
Marcie, this really struck a chord with me (pun intended). Each morning during my prayer/devo time, I find myself desperate. I can't put my finger on it, I just know there's a deep longing that is not being filled. I'm crying out to God and I know He is there, but I just can't get filled enough.
Reading your post, the Lord spoke to me. Yes, Marcie! God used YOUR post to move in my spirit. I will be filled when I turn off the world and seek HIM above all else.
Blessing to you, sweet friend! Praying your feeling better soon!
Oh Beckie, you have no idea how much this means to me. I am so thankful God's Spirit has moved within you. I relate very well with your desperation. I, too, have been desperate for God and His filling. Praise the Lord! I am mending slowly but I am healing. Thank you, Marcie 🙂