by Marcie Bridges, @Marcie_Bridges
If I could find you out at sea I would swim the ocean deep,
If I could find you in the meadow I would bask in its stillness
But I found you right here where I am on my knees in your presence.
Oh Jesus. Where are you? Are you here?
Floating. I see a hot air balloon wayyy up in the sky. Can I reach it? Why are my feet in the air above my head?
Jesus? Are you here? Mark is holding my hand. I feel him. I hear him. Where are You? Jesus … Jesus … Jesussss… there’s just something about that name …
A voice began to sing along with me. So gentle. So sweet. “‘Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word. Just to rest upon His promise. Just to know, thus sayeth the Lord. Jesus, Jesus how I trust You, how I’ve proved You o’re and o’re. Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus. Oh for grace to trust You more…”
And the world stop spinning and I stopped floating as things went a bit dark for awhile.
Such was my experience on Nitrous Oxygen a few weeks ago right before having a tooth extracted and a bone graft done. I was so nervous my blood pressure was at an all-time high. But when I woke up, my arms and legs felt extremely limber. Relaxed was an understatement!
When asked if I remembered anything during my time of Nitrous floating or in the surgery my immediate response was, “I was singing with Jesus.”
Lately I’ve been longing to find Jesus in every part of my life. The Bible says when we intentionally seek God we will find Him. When we search for Him with all of our heart He will come to us and be present with us.
This surgery has given me a lot of time to sit and be still. I am not sure why my energy level is not coming back like it was (though I’m thinking it’s because I’m still experiencing so much pain I can’t eat regular foods even three weeks later). So while I am spending time recovering, I’m spending a lot of time with God. Searching for Him behind every door, every tree, every shadow, every corner.
Psalm 139:7-10 tells us that no matter where we go or what we are doing God is there with us. Doesn’t that give you the most comforting assurance you’ve ever had? He promises to never leave us nor forsake us.
Have you been searching for God too? I promise you, when you seek Him with all of your heart, He will be found.
Even in a dentist’s chair out of your mind on Nitrous Oxide.