I was feeling pretty low. Not just because of my ailment, but just down in general.
Opening my iPad my eyes land on this video on Facebook. I had been so excited and looking forward to seeing this new video from Francesca Battistelli. She had been teasing us with little snippets of it for days and I absolutely love her song, “He Knows My Name”. So, of course, I just had to watch it before doing my devotions. (To understand the rest of my story, please watch the video…)
My mind drifted to so many friends who are hurting right now. Hurts, sorrows and downright ugliness, I’ve never lived.
I opened my iPad again and began reading through devotions. Sadly, none of them seemed to help. Then I read the Jesus Calling entry for the day. Okay, that was nice. I like those verses. But, I still felt weighted down with the knowing that I cannot say anything more to my friends than, “I’m so sorry.” “Here, this verse might help.” “I’m praying for you.” No, I wanted to do more. Be more.
My head throbbed. I decided to take a break. Of course God orchestrated that too. Because I got onto Facebook and once again, God showed up. I clicked on the first link I saw (please click and go read):
And there was this.
God simply calls us to obedience. To do what He’s asked and He’ll be the One to finish the job. It’s my job not only to obey Him, but to be teachable. To let Him teach me how to be a light in their darkness.
I went back to my devotionals to journal what I found important in them.
Because there was this:
A LIGHT IN THEIR DARKNESS
Her words etched into my heart
Scars could not keep the wound from hurt
deep, dark pain and misery
spewed forth like blood from a cut artery.
And I sat there helplessly
groping for words to comfort, soothe and ease
but nothing, not one word,
sounded adequate to my own ears and mind
scattered to the four corners
blank as a canvas before the strokes from the artist.
What indeed could I say?
Even Scripture seemed lost and in vain.
How do I help when I’ve never known
never felt, never dealt, never understood their wounds?
Lord! I cry to You!
I want to be a light in their darkness
don’t know how so Lord help me
say the words that will lighten their burden
or maybe just listen
because, does anything really need to be spoken?
God, I plead help me be
the friend I know You want me to
a lighthouse on a hill
beaming a light bright for them to feel
Your love, Your comfort, Your peace
that’s really all they need.
~Marcell Warner Bridges
©30, October 2014
~Lord, teach me how to be a light in others darkness. Teach me how to see their pain as You see it and to have the words You want me to say to them. Teach me how to just sit and listen if that is all they need. Most of all Lord, teach me how to listen to You. ~