By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
“Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.”
I have carried with me
heavy bones and soft soul
dragging my weight
night and day
helpless in an eternity
limping my way through…
I stand on a precipice
afraid to look over the edge
I know what I will see
and my stomach
churns like waves of the sea
but I dream
of flying … anyway.
©15 September 2020
The writers of the Psalms often recall their times of feeling in complete turmoil. They liken it to “bones waxing away” and sighing.
Have you ever felt that way? Sheer drudgery at the idea of opening your eyes in the morning and greeting a new day? And then when you do get up, it’s all you can do to stand, letting on do anything else.
Oh, how life has been this way for me lately. I dread trying to sleep but I don’t want to get up when morning comes either. Too many hard things have come down the pipeline around here and while I don’t want to give up, I also don’t want to do anything either.
But I LOVE how the Psalmist encourages us to go to God in our times of distress. This afternoon I pulled out my iPad, opened the Bible app, searching for something to give me a little light. A little hope.
Ever have God touch the Bible for you and open it just where you need it? Oh how sweet His grace was as He said, “Open to Psalm 42.”
“Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.”
Did you see it too? “Put your hope in God.” My spirit lifted and I felt reassurance in my heart that everything is going to be okay. It really is.
I’m still afraid of looking over the edge of the cliff to see how far down it is, but the good news is, if I fall, God will catch me and will help me land safely.
“Why, my soul, are you downcast?” Great question. It’s time I put my hope and trust in God, my Savior and praise him.
From My Heart to Yours,